December 3, 2010


Let me set the scene:

It's Friday night. I just walked in from our staff Christmas dinner. It's eight o'clock. The T.V. is on, but no J.B. I go up to his 'man'den, but no J.B.

I go to our room and still, no J.B.

And so, lastly, my heart sinks, thinking oh, no. He must be in e's room trying to get her to sleep. NO NO NO!

I open the door to my babe's room, and there, on the floor, is J.B. Fast asleep.

And there in the crib is e. Fast asleep.

And happy mommy gently closes the door and thanks God for small miracles like a night to herself!!!

woop woop!

And so, an update. It's been nearly two weeks since my four hour escapade with little e, and things, I dare say, may be looking up.

I fear letting down my guard too soon, mind you; but so far, so good.

Monday night, she slept until five thirty and when I went in, I laid her back down, I laid down, and back to sleep she went. No arguing or crying to be picked up.

Tuesday night through until the following Wednesday night? e slept from seven until seven. Yes. For eight straight nights, I, SB, have for the first time in 20 months, been permitted to sleep through the night...

I was beginning to get giddy - imagining how I will feel when I get full night's sleeps for the next four months before the next babe arrives!!!

And I let my guard was Wednesday night.  Over a week later. I thought, truly, that I was out of the woods....

I even permitted myself to stay up until 10pm....

And then e did it to me: she woke up that night at one am and then again at five. Both times I laid her down, then laid me down. At three she was UPSET and took a long time to settle herself, so I just fell asleep there on the floor.

And then when I got up and went to my bed at three, I got myself another full two hours before the next big cry..

I felt doomed. 

NO NO NO, I thought; I cannot CANNOT go through another full night of crying and training and and and...and I need my sleep.

This is not fair!!!!

I felt I was a bad parent and that I'd failed at this sleep training task.

I thought the wonderful sleep spell was broken for good...

But then, last night, she slept through again.

Thank God.

So, here's to hoping that things continue continuing on. Let's all pray for three good months of sleep for me before I lose all hopes of full nights again for likely another year or two!!!

On that note: 8:19. jb is sleeping soundly. e is sleeping soundly.

seems like a good idea to me!

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